Players gonna play, and haters gonna hate! I headed into work today, still buzzing a little bit high from having done the color run yesterday. I was still sporting my silver and gold star temporary tattoos on my left arm and my silver unicorn on my right arm, as it is okay to have these things show at work, or so it seems, when I was asked about that “thing on my arm.”
I said oh this? Excited to have someone ask about my unicorn, I went on to say it was part of the Color Run yesterday, and that I was still sort of stained a little bit, because I have some splotches of paint scattered various places. As I explained what the color run was, I got this whiff of nastiness washing over me from the other party involved. “Why were you even outside yesterday.” “You shouldn’t be doing that.” “You’re going to *blah blah blah*” and I tuned right on out. In my mind all I could do was visualize myself rising above all of the what I can only imagine as self-doubt, or self-hate, or something else internally because, I knew my limits, and I respected them.
Yes it was hot, yes I am sore because I have ONE new blister… but I did really well with prep work on my feet and managed to protect enough that I only ended up with one. I spent much of the day picturing myself as a little red balloon rising along a rainbow in the sky of clouds and sun today. I can be rooted in the ground, and floating above things at the same time. It is a very, peaceful place to be, and I am working very hard to stay in this place.
I am working to let go of a lot of things, things that are too stressful, things I cannot change. I often find that I am accused of doing too many things for other people, and am working on a balance of doing things for myself. The act of rising above is a gift of kindness itself. To forgive others for their judgement and harshness is a gift to others.
I am a work in progress, but I feel like working towards a shift in the way we think helps change who we are and how we see the world. I am doing my best to take a moment each day and honor myself, whether it is in forgiveness, in physical action, or in some other way.
Be kind to yourself, be kind to each other, and remember to find something everyday to celebrate, inside and outside of yourself!