So recently I have been trying to stay very in the moment. Very conscious and connected to the here and now. I hear people call it being rooted, or a bunch of different things I started calling it being in the flow when I started connecting to whatever “it” is that I have been experiencing. The more I am in the flow, the more I find books, experiences, and people who are “in the flow.” I am experiencing energy attracting like energy and I fully believe it.
If you view yourself as mediocre, and look at your circle of friends, and your job and your situation, you are going to find that you are surrounded by things that are exactly that. If you view yourself as AMAZING, and that you do AWESOME things, and you try new things, and you like in a state of the here and now and are thankful for what you can do in the moment… you will attract more good energy.
So earlier this week I was having a nice chat with a friend, when a nerve was struck. It struck kinda hard and I am not sure why. We have been talking about a lot of things. We talk a lot about work, a lot about my old job, since we have that setting in common. We started talking about how I had left behind some big shoes to fill, that they haven’t quite found the right fit for and how I still feel a little bit of mixed emotions over that situation. We also talked about some things going on in life right now, big and little, mostly just empty chat… that somehow turned into deep insightful conversation as tends to happen when I just sit down to talk with someone.
When he said… “everyone is someones replacement” I just… I didn’t have words to respond. I mean, it is truth, it is so profound… It makes me think about what kind of space I want to leave behind to be replaced in any aspect of my life. About two weeks ago a friend of mine passed away suddenly. If I were to pass away… who would be my replacement.
I know that is not exactly the context we were speaking in… but my mind went there. I mean, I know I am replaceable at work… I never live under the illusion that I am not. While I may have been told two jobs ago “you can be replaced by an add on craigslist” during a fit of frustration by my manager, for which when I gave my notice and said that was one of my reasons for leaving I received an apology, it is true. My replacements may not be as qualified for the job as I was, or as hard-working, but as i said before you attract what you put out there… and if you are just looking for a body to be there at an ungodly hour… that is what you will get.
I don’t have kids of my own to worry about who would be mom to them… but I am an auntie… and it is sad to think who would replace what I teach them. I am a daughter, and no matter what the state of my relationship with parents is, there is no one that could replace that role. I am a sister, who would put her life on the line… or on hold in her brother needed something. Who would do that?
While everyone is someones replacement… no one is replaceable. I want those words to resonate with you right now. Everyone is someones replacement… but NO ONE IS REPLACEABLE. You are valuable. You are unique and you touch people in ways you do not know, and can not understand.
I have struggled for years with depression. Along with depression I have self-esteem issues, self-worth issues, anxiety, you name it it effects me in some way. When I was a teen I attempted suicide, and as I have been in recovery from that for years it never really clicked that I am not replaceable. I can be replaced but I am not replaceable. My job in the transportation industry has I suppose served as a huge learning tool for me… because it keeps showing me over and over again that I can be replaced but I am not replaceable.
So take a look in the mirror, look into your eyes and tell yourself you are not replaceable, say it like you mean it. Say it until you believe it. Everyday.