Things have been quiet around here. Lots of things have been going on.
Ive spent the last month or so undergoing a battery of tests, that continue trying to find out what is going on with my leg. Recently the drop foot I have been experiencing has gotten worse. It has become painful through my leg, and there has been no explination for the drop foot. They ran a battery of tests to rule out a number of things. The latest appointment revealed that while I do have a bulged disk in my back, which is not surprising given the collagen issues I have, and my propensity to lift things I shouldn’t, it is not in the right place to be causing the issues with me leg.
The upside is that there were no MS lesions spotted, which was a concern they had given the multitude of symptoms I was displaying. Unfortunatly, I still have no answers. I have calls into several neurologists in the area to get started with more tests, and we will go from there. I work to manage the pain on a daily basis. I use my cane at home… and try not to venture into public with it, because I just… I don’t like the feeling of defeat.
In other news, about a month, maybe two ago a job opened up at work. I decided that I would apply. Now for those of you that remember how scared I was to jump and leave my dispatching job, this was a HUGE deal. Last week it was announced that I had been offered the position. I was proud of myself, and only a little shocked. I knew deep down that I was qualified. I know the job will posess its challenges, and that is what I loook forward to.
Looking at how far I have come from the girl that was scared and stuck, to the strong person who knows her value, and can see her strengths is amazing. It is not ego, it is self worth, and it grows everyday inside me. I display pride in my work, and my efforts are paying off.
Placing value on what i can contribute alone, as well as part of a team is showing me who I am. This road to a better place of everything has been a long one. It is amazing how one little spark can change everything. The more I do the more I can do.